When you have kids, as a mother you never intend to loose yourself, it just becomes inevitable. Or is it just me? As well as your body changing as you grow and give birth to a child, your whole life switched to caring for this tiny human who completely depends on you for everything. All of a sudden, life as you know it is over. Not in a bad way of course, just different and after 4 and a half years of being a mum I'm not sure I even remember who I used to be because now I'm "mummy". I used to live care free, go out for drinks every night after work, have weekends away and be more spontaneous.
After having Harry I went back into that hole again and only now feel like I'm coming out of it again and doing more stuff for myself and instead of just existing i'm being Kerry. I've started reading, which is something I haven't done since having kids. Of course I read blogs but it's not the same as sitting down and reading a book.
I've started going on the sunbeds again, something I used to do years ago before going on holiday and with a holiday coming up in November I want to build up a base tan. Also, just having a bit of colour makes me feel happy and it helps with my dry skin on my arms.
This week I did something out of the ordinary, well at least for me anyway... I booked myself into get eye lash extensions and then a few days later to get HD brows. I've never ever been to a salon before or got my eyebrows done so it was nice to have some time to myself.
I'll also be having a lot more time to myself with a child free day on the day I don't work due to recent events which means I can get out and do more stuff for myself! I'm looking at getting my nails done soon and hoping to make it a regular thing and pamper myself. I'm don't have many friends in real life, the majority of them I met through blogging so live hundreds of miles away so I do feel very lonely. I'm not a very sociable person as I'm very shy until you get to know me which is why it probably makes meeting new people a lot harder for me. Hopefully now I can get out more and start dating, something I should have done a year ago instead of wasting a whole year to find out I've been the mug believing I could trust someone again!
But we only learn from our mistakes, so it's time I start finding myself again.