It will probably sound silly to most but I don't usually like taking the kids out of the house unless its for a quiet walk in the country side, aside from the school run and to the shops of course. I've never really been much of a people person and tend to keep myself to myself, I'm incredibly shy meeting new people and defintiely an introvert. However, I do try and get out as often as I can with the kids instead of being cooped up indoors, it just doesn't tend to be where there are crowds of people unless I'm with family or friends.
We don't really go to any play centres or soft play, mainly because our favourite one closed down and the next one is about 40 minutes away, and we never go on play dates. We never go swimming or do any other activities but I have booked some after school and weekend clubs for Amelia for when she starts back at school so that will be good to socialise with other parents.
But yesterday I decided to take the kids to the local carnival as we had been driving past them setting it up for a couple of days and Amelia kept asking to go. In the back of my mind I hoped she would forget and not ask again but you know kids are like at that age, they NEVER forget anything! So she kept begging to go every day, until the day came and I thought what excuse can I make not to go and asked her if she wanted to go to the beach instead. Nope, the funfair it was. She really wanted to go and that made me feel really guilty, my anxiety was stopping her from doing something she really wanted to do. So off we went to the funfair, she was so excited and I was glad I made the right decision.
I was a little dubious at first as to whether it would be worth going as she wouldn't really be able to go on anything as I would be on my own with both of the kids and Harry can't go on anything but I needn't have worried as there was plenty of rides for her age where she could go on by herself and we could stand nearby and watch. She went on about 6 or 7 rides, and played on the bouncy castles and kids play area for a while, got her face painted and then she asked if we could play one of the games at the stalls, you know one of those where you have to grab a duck with a hook and you win a prize. I managed to grab a duck and Amelia was able to choose any prize she wished.
Of course she would only go and choose a bloody goldfish! Before I had to chance to ask her if she really wanted it and to choose something else the guy had already grabbed the fish and handed her the bag. It brought back memories of when I won a goldfish when staying at my grandparents when I was a kid and had to sit with it on my lap for 8 hours whilst travelling home. She was so happy with her prize and named the fish Elsa, ha ha! We then grabbed some candy floss and a hot dog and made our way back to the car as we now had a bloody fish to look after.
All in all, it was a lovely day and do you know what? I'm glad I plucked up the courage to take them both on my own as Amelia was so happy and well behaved. It's not often that we go to local attractions and funfairs as such but I definitely will in future now as it wasn't that bad at all. I have a circus trip, cinema day, the zoo and some other day trips planned for the rest of the summer and I can't wait! Now that Harry is older it's a bit easier to take them out on my own as he can walk and I can still keep an eye on Amelia if she wanders off.
Amelia has always wanted a pet, so is really happy with her fish. I'm going to take her to the pet shop tomorrow to get some bits for the tank which she is really excited to do. Lets just hope it stays alive!