So this is something that has been on my mind for a while now and after much thought I have decided to go back to work full time. It wasn't a decision I took lightly, after all I love spending time with my kids but there's part of me that wants to be me again and I've always loved my job. I work in the hospitality industry and have done since I was 13, I've had managerial positions over the years but since having Amelia, I took a step down and worked in a new local restaurant which I am extremely passionate about. I love the company and what we do, I also do some of their social media on the side which is also something I love doing but some day would like to progress again or work in social media full time.
I wondered if I was being selfish at first, wanting to go back to work full time but the reason I am doing it is for my kids. I am currently saving for a deposit as I want to be able to own my own home in a few years which will give us that security of having a roof over our heads and not having to worry about landlords selling up and the only way I can do that is by bringing in more income, especially as a single parent.
When I first went on maternity leave with Amelia I didn't know what to do with myself as I was a custom to working 60+ hours a week before she came along. But over time I adjusted to being a stay at home mum, however I did eventually go back to work part time when she was 14 months old as I did miss working and having the social life I once had. Although I was a nervous wreck at first, I did eventually feel at ease with her being looked after by other people and really enjoyed working again.
Again once on maternity leave with Harry I couldn't wait to go back even if it was only 16 hours a week, it was 2 days where I would have some me time and sanity from being in the house all day. I ended up going back much earlier this time round, I think Harry was 10 months old. I didn't have the same guilt as I did the first time round and felt more at ease with other people looking after him.
So, I'm hoping to go back to work this September and have started looking at after school clubs for Amelia and also childcare for Harry. I'm lucky that I already have family looking after the kids on the two days that I already work so I'll only need childcare for an additional two days which means I'm not forking out too much to make it worthwhile going back. I did always say I would go back to work when both of them were in school as I'd have nothing else to do anyway, and I knew I wouldn't be blogging in years to come but wasn't sure if I wanted to go back so soon. I do love blogging but I've been thinking about stopping earning from it for a while now or maybe I'll just do it on the side.
I'm also debating whether or not to wait until the following September (2017) when Harry will be 2 and a half as he would then be able to attend the nursery at the school which Amelia went to last year as it is a lot cheaper and would also be easier dropping them off and picking them up. I also really like the nursery and we know all the staff really well so it would be nice for him to go there too, but I'm not sure whether I want to wait another year.
I don't know if it will be the right decision, we'll have to wait and see but I am happy with my decision to go back full time for now. I think it will allow us to appreciate the time we do have together more, I'll still have the weekends and Thursdays off so I'll make sure we get out and do things together as a family. I'll also be grateful of being able to switch off after work and spending quality time with the kids, instead of working at every opportunity I have free blogging, on social media, checking emails and taking blog photos. It will also mean I am able to enjoy my evenings watching TV, blogging if I wish, catching up on others blog posts and also being able to keep on top of the housework instead of putting it off until the next day.
I'd love to hear about your decisions to go back to work full time after having children? Did you go back when they were young or wait until they were in school?