It's not unusual for us mums to get caught up in everything and forget about ourselves. We always put everyone else first and rightly so when kids are involved however it's nice to not be "mummy" for a few hours, not having to clean dirty nappies and not having to listen to the toddlers 50th tantrum of the day. Sometimes we just need a break and that's okay because we are only human.
These past couple of weeks I've began to realise that it's okay to go out without the kids and it's okay not to feel guilty about it too. I've been getting out of the house on my own even if it's just popping to the local supermarket and browsing every isle just to waste time, i've been to coffee shops catching up on some work and emails whilst enjoying a hot mug of hot chocolate without a toddler screaming in one ear and having to multitask and feed the baby whilst typing with one hand.
I recently went to a concert and didn't get back until 1am which is probably the latest I've been out since having the kids as I would always want to get back early as I would feel guilty on babysitters (my mum). I've also been out for food with friends a couple of times which I really do miss. I used to love going out to eat but never have the chance to go anymore so it's nice when you can go out and catch up with friends and enjoy some nice food with adult conversation. I'm also planing on going to the cinema with another friend next week and possibly a day at the spa soon too. There's so much that I want to do and there's nothing holding me back anymore.
It's these little things that I used to do and stopped doing once I became a mother that I miss and I've come to realise that I shouldn't have to hide away and just be a mum. I miss my social life and I WILL get it back this year! Of course I love my children and would rather spend the day with them any day of the week but it's good to have "me time" every once in a while. When Amelia was born I was too nervous to leave her as I'd miss her too much, and would be that paranoid mum. Since Harrison was born I'm much more relaxed and don't mind leaving him so much as I know he'll be okay. I don't get the evenings to myself anymore since Harrison was born not that I would do anything with my evenings other than blog so I need to grab the chances where I can get time to myself and just go for it and not be afraid to go out and leave the kids.
It's nice to be Kerry again instead of just mummy!